understatement of the year

sometimes, it is truly exhausting to be a christian.
can I get an amen?
but He loves.
so I love.
or I try at least.
love--man it's difficult.

baby steps

so speak and so act as those who are to be judged under the law of liberty.
for judgment is without mercy to one who has shown no mercy.
mercy triumphs over judgment.
james 2: 12-13

baby steps.
let's just take baby steps for now.

take a look at me now

I got my ears pierced today.
for those who don't know, I have refused to get any piercings on my body since birth, because I am a huge sucker for pain.
but today, spontaneity was in the air, and I decided to give it a shot.
my ears literally felt like they were being hole-punched, as if they were thin pieces of paper.
it was a very strange experience.

I know it's not that big of a deal, but I felt so courageous today.
we've only got one life to live here on earth anyway, so why not right?
I wonder what other chances I'll take in the future...

a bundle of joy

041909 Chanel joins the Choi family.



she's a purebred maltese puppy of 2 months.
isn't she the cutest thing ever?

sideNote:
the hillsong concert was pretty amazing. very refreshing&fun.
brooke fraser=awesome.

give me the green light

driving down the road late at night
no stopping
just green, green & more green.
--that is the best.

that's how I feel like my life is going right now.
it's just a bunch of green lights, gently pushing me towards my goal, allowing me to gradually accelerate little by little until I'm riding the curves with a smooth, wave-like motion.

sometimes I almost just wait for the red to slow me to a piercing halt.
I dread it.
it's so comfortable right now.
just five more minutes--make it ten.

"I live in the clouds. Reality is not for me. People say I should come down.
That the clouds are not a place for grownups to be. I smile at them.
Maybe one day I will come down. But I never will. Reality is not for me.
I shall stay up here. The view is quite breathtaking"
-andre jordan

paranoia

question: what is with the plethora of silkworms that erupted out of nowhere these past couple days?

it's really gross. I found like three of them on my clothing articles during classes.
now when I'm on the sidewalks near the trees, I get all paranoid which in turn forces me to walk strangely, throwing dirty glares at the possible silkworms hiding in the branches, waiting at any moment to pounce on me.

boo for itsy bitsy, creepy crawlies.

great expectations

I expect too much.
from people, from situations, from everything.
it leaves me feeling dissatisfied, unhappy, and confused.

but the only person I should expect from is God.
only He deserves our great expectations,
because He's the only one who can fulfill them.



inspiring quote of the day:
"temptations are sore things;
but yet without them, we know not our selves,
nor what we are able to do."
-pamela_samuel richardson

forget-me-nots

"heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlaying our hard hearts."
-pip, great expectations

poignantly put, dickens. couldn't have said it better myself.


I love these little dates I've been going on lately.
slowing things down and getting to spend some quality time with people makes me happy.
♥


a joke for you:
Q: why did the book join the police?
A: so he could work undercover

courtesy of my grape-flavored popsicle.
isn't it so clever and cute? makes me wanna giggle.

mindless babbles

on the way up from chapel to sb, I saw a burning car on the side of the road.
it was a really scary image. and I still wonder if there were any people trapped in there.

I am officially going to Nicaragua for the summer. for those of you who don't know, that is in central america (I had no idea in the beginning actually...terrible geography skills--mind you, I am an english major thank goodness). it will be exciting times; I feel it in my fingers.

recently, I received a really encouraging email. it motivates me to do the same for others. personalized emails are so underrated. I love them.

love/hate relationships. bleh. enough said.

I got owned in the legs by a softball today. twice. once in each leg. the lingering stinging effect is an immediate indicator that perhaps this is not the sport for me.

people can really surprise you. but on the flipside, they can really disappoint you too. oh, how interesting it is to be human.

lately, I've been feeling so thankful for certain people in my life. namely God. but many of those close to me as well. blessings upon blessings.

don't you love it when you find the perfect verse to describe your current situation? it's been happening a lot for me. it's a good feeling.

I want to go on an adventure. one that involves the ocean and forest greens and cloudgazing&stargazing. and hair blowing in the slight breeze.

week2 already. where does the time go?

veritas

this is my prayer in the desert
when all that's within me feels dry
this is my prayer in my hunger and need
my God is the God who provides

and this is my prayer in the fire
in weakness, or trial, or pain
there is a faith proved more worth than gold
so refine me Lord through the flame

and I will bring praise, I will bring praise
no weapon forged against me shall remain
I will rejoice, I will declare
God is my victory, and He is here

all of my life, in every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship.

a song that speaks directly to my spirit
at this very moment in time.
this is the only way--He knows.
I have been broken. completely. utterly.
shattered.
stripped to my very core.
yet, there is such peace.

I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship.