for the harvest

coming back from UR, I can safely say that my convictions for missions have been strengthened mightily.
it's so amazing how I signed up for UR with absolutely no hesitation, regretted the hasty decision, and was able to see why God led me to attending this year.

for quite some time now, I've grown to have a heart for thailand--especially for the women&children affected heavily by prostitution.
strange as it seems, my heart is torn by the stories that I hear&the images that enter my mind when I think about the country.
the tears that flow down my cheeks whenever I even think about the people who desperately need God surprise even myself.
but as I continue to realize just how much these lives could be changed through salvation, I find reason for my weeping.
just the fact that these souls are chained by not only sexual slavery but also by spiritual bondage is so tragic, and my whole heart aches&desires to be a part of their lives.

to be perfectly honest, it does scare me at times to even think about stepping into a country where such acts are so acknowledged and accepted.
however, I have full faith that God will take these petty fears away from my heart and replace them with love&great compassion.

everything that was related to missions during UR reminded me of how my knowledge of what was going on in thailand truly made me responsible to go out there and deliver souls to God and have Him work wonders.
every seminar and every sermon spurred me on more&more and ultimately left me so pumped and excited to go out there&give it all I've got in order to allow God to work through me.
as I felt even more convicted, I felt compelled to research on the country and it's history of prostitution and found so many facts that simply added to my urgency for missions.

I truly pray that I'll have a chance to go there and see for myself the tragedies that are occurring there on a regular basis.
if God be willing, I would absolutely love the chance to go there this summer.
but wherever he leads me ultimately for the summer, I will go and He will bless&provide--I'm sure of it.
prayer prayer prayer.

and on another note, i really love the song Everlasting God by New Life Worship.
it's an absolutely beautiful song&definitely on my repeat list.